Doing Life in Lavender

This is my pill pot! This contains all the medication I take. All the anti-seizure medication, all the medication to counteract the side effects of the anti-seizure medication and more gets carried around with me everywhere I go (unless I've forgotten!) If I have forgotten it, I tend to find myself in a bit of a pickle! (That's understating it slightly!) I'm trying to get better at remembering it though, as I've gotten myself in some tight spots where I'm patching together a dose from what I keep in my mum's bag, and my family's car.  And when I can't do that, I have to accept that I'm going to be twitchy until I get home. This is such a small thing and yet so much of my health depends on my ability to keep it organised and on my person.

I have had tonic-clonic seizures throughout my life.( Tonic clonic seizures | Epilepsy Society ) I have been given medication to use if my seizure lasts longer than 2 minutes, administered by somebody else of course. Thankfully I haven’t needed this medication in years, but it’s still really important I have it, just in case! Whilst I now understand the importance of keeping rescue meds on my person, I haven’t always been so understanding. I was nearly unable to go on a school trip because the school lacked someone able to administer the medication, if necessary. Nowadays I understand the need to be prepared & that situations can change quickly, but this was difficult to explain to 12 year-old me & if that’s why I was missing out on a trip, it didn’t go down well…( my mum was a LEGEND! She came up with magical solutions. My younger self didn’t realise how much she sacrificed for me.) I can now appreciate the need to be ready for any situation. After 11 years more experience...

  Hello again! This year, due to Covid-19, my work had to put on hold the plans it had for Purple Day in March. Therefore all our purple celebrations are happening now, in November, during Epilepsy Awareness Month. The picture above is my personal attempt at something we are encouraging people to do which is bring a bit more purple joy into the world with Purple Doodles. Despite being told there was no theme, every doodle on the piece of paper above has some kind of meaning. It is all based on my childhood, hence the princess crowns, flowers and friendship bracelets. However, there are also lots of nods to my epilepsy in there! There are teardrops, representative of my crying during seizures. There is me asleep, which is a nod to the fatigue and exhaustion seizures can give me. There is a brain, due to the fact that epilepsy is a neurological condition. There is also a very poor attempt at drawing an EEG (although I have been told it looks like a peacocks feathers by multiple peopl...

  Hello again! This is the corner of my room when I keep and organise all my medications! As you can see it's quite extensive! This is because my epilepsy has been termed pharmaco-resistant meaning that it doesn't respond well to drugs. Therefore, there are 5 medications I take on a regular basis. Then there are the medications I take to combat the side effects of the first 5. And then after that is the medication which I only take in case of an emergency (i.e. my rescue medication, anti-sickness). This looks like a bigger part of my life than it feels. Even though taking these medications has a massive impact on my health, I have grown very used to it. I can't remember a time when I wasn't taking tablets, though the medication regime changes as my consultant continues to try and improve control over my seizures. But because I am so used to it now, all I do is make sure I fill a pill pot every evening at the end of my day. I then have an alarm set to remind me to take t...

Hello again! Today I'm getting pretty real. Today I wanted to talk about something not often talked about; injuries as a result of seizures. I have it quite easy in regards to injuries due to seizures, at least in comparison to some people. I have had some injuries when I was younger, but no one thought it appropriate at the time to take a photo of me as a toddler getting my scalp glued back together because I've fallen out of bed seizing. I'm able to talk about that story so light-heartedly because I was so young and I remember absolutely none of it! However, for lots of people, injuring themselves seizing is a daily reality.  More recently I have been on a medication that has impacted my balance. I always knew I was clumsy but this has taken things to a whole new level. I'm falling over My feet for no reason whatsoever. I'm walking into anything and everything. The bruises on my legs could rival me at nine years old on a tree climbing spree! (That's impressive...

Hello again! A few days ago I sat down with my amazing mum and had a conversation about what it was like to be the parent of a child with a complex neurological condition. Specifically me. During this interview, we discuss what it was like being my mum during a weird and complicated diagnosis, managing things like school, how my brothers were told I had epilepsy as well as a fair bit more!  This was not a conversation that would normally happen so it was really nice to sit down with her and try and get some of her perspective on certain things as well as her insights, people who have helped her the most and things that she has learned.  My mum decided that she didn't want to be filmed so for the most part this is entirely audio. I hope that's ok! However, because we are muppets, we didn't realise until after recording that we had used lots of people's names when we shouldn't have done. Thus, every now and then, a message will appear on the screen for clarification o...

Hello again, lovely people! Today I'm talking about medication and the impact it can have. Medication can be a huge part of anyone's life. It isn't just epilepsy, however as it is something that pretty much everyone with epilepsy has to deal with, I thought I'd share my personal experiences on it. I'm currently on four medications for my epilepsy; Carbamazepine, Zonisamide, Clobazam, and Levetiracetam (if it seems like a lot that's because it is!). Managing four medications can be tricky and I've had a lot of experience with a variety of medications so I thought I'd share some of all that. If someone starts having seizures and is given a diagnosis of epilepsy, AED's (Anti-Epileptic Drugs) are nearly always the first treatment that is tried. Fortunately, roughly sixty percent of people's epilepsy can be completely controlled with AED’s. However, the process of finding the appropriate combination of medications can be a long and difficult one. Pe...